I haven't been updating this as often as I hoped I would. It's weird, when I'm feeling happy and upbeat I'm not inspired to write. I feel like maybe people wouldn't be as interested in reading positive stuff, I guess, but at the same time, I wonder who wants to read me whine 24/7? I would also like to let people know that, well, depression and mental illness can be overcome, and what kind of example am I to just post when I feel like spreading my misery around in a big ol' misery flavored soup (ew...)????
Well, I hope you're happy to know that this week has been going pretty well. I have a much more positive outlook and I even registered for school! I've been going to therapy regularly and trying to asses myself, and *gasp* I've even been more... dare I say... relaxed around people. WOAAHH!! Things are looking pretty good right now. :)
I really don't want to jinx it, though. Many-a-time I've felt like this, only to be shot down harder than a Thanksgiving turkey. I guess it's kinda like coming down off some really good shit. You feel great, you're high (in this case on life) and you feel like things just couldn't be better! And then you start to come down (something bad happens, car accident, broken bone, people are dicks, etc..) and you feel it more than you normally would because of how fucking good you just felt, out of nowhere, for a seemingly long time. Then it's like "Shit, I forgot that life sucks..." BUT!! I know this now, and I have more knowledge of myself, so hopefully when the hard times come back a knocking, I'll be there to answer the door, let 'em in, give 'em some coffee or whatever the fuck it is they want, and send 'em on their creepy, sad little way, and then continue my get-together with happiness, who was waiting patiently on the couch the whole time. ^.^
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