So, I saw some of my old friends today and yesterday, and surprisingly I wasn't all that nervous. I wasn't completely calm, but I was pretty damn calm, for me anyways. I talked, joked, had a good time. It was fun. I'm glad that I'm starting to come out of my shell.... again. Today before I went out I must admit I was really nervous about going, but I was sitting on my bed and I thought "wait, why am I nervous? Being nervous before-hand makes it worse, and plus, they're probably more scared of me than I am of them...", and it totally helped me. Yes, I did still have some pretty awkward moments of awkwardness/silence, but for the most part, I was good. :) I'm very proud of myself.
One thing that bothered me, though, was the fact that my one friend has lost a lot of weight. She was already skinny to begin with, maybe a tad fuller than me, and she's now a size 0. She's cocaine skinny, complete with the pale skin and faded bags under the eyes. I could be wrong, though, maybe she just started eating healthy and exercising a lot, and maybe she didn't get that much sleep the night before, but... I don't know. I know first hand what a coke diet does to the body and face. But a lack of food and sleep kinda looks the same, too. I really hope it's not drugs, even if it's "just to lose weight" because 5 pounds turns into "weeeelll, maybe 10" real fast, and then 10 turns to 25 and then 25 turns to dead. Just the facts, man.
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